Happy Daddy's Day

The person I am now; someone who always has an opinion, someone who is not afraid to say it out loud, and someone who sometimes has anger issues is because of one person, my dad. From the time I was born, I have always been a daddy's girl to the point that when I was small and he left town, I would get sick. 
Even now, I'm the girl that looked for him in the crowd when I graduated, showed him photos of my trophy and waits for the smile on his face when I think I've done well. Even though there have been times where we've had our differences, he's always been there to pull me up, tell me that I should move on from the past and not dwell on it and look forward. He's always given me words of encouragement, words of wisdom, and sometimes just words (mainly to do with lame jokes that no one understands). Coming from Bhubaneswar all the way Hong Kong and living the way we do, I can't thank him enough for the life that he has given me, the opportunities I've had and the people I've met. Thank you pitashree, I love you more than words! I hope that one day I can give you what you've given me and make you proud of me as I am of you.

Siblings

I've been thinking about what to write since it's been a really long time since my last post, and yet nothing came into my head. This last week, my brother came home and it gave me time to reflect.
When my mother was pregnant, I wished for a younger sister or an older sibling. Someone that would pamper me and look after me or someone younger that I could share all my secrets with. Not once did I want a younger brother because I thought he would be the most immature person in the world and really annoying.
Growing up, he had a talent that surpassed quite a few people. He picked up a cricket ball at an early age and has flourished into an amazing cricket player. Along with that, I can say with a lot of confidence, that he has become one of the brightest, mature and handsome men that I've met. I'm not saying this just because he's my brother, I've heard it from other people that he has become a kind, young man, who matured quite quickly.
As a sibling, I didn't have much to offer him. With our age difference being so big, and my parents taking care of his studies and cricket, all I could say to him was to make sure he didn't make the same mistakes I did.
And he hasn't. My brother has excelled in everything he has done. He put in tons of hard work and it's all paid off. My brother is one of the most amazing people I have met. Not once do I wish I had someone else as my sibling because even though he's 16 and probably immature many times, he's the one person I can turn to for anything. Someone who when he comes home will fight for me and fight with me. 
We've grown up from biting each other and fighting each other to talking walks, watching movies and fighting over food. And he's the one person who hasn't judged me. At all. No matter what my flaws are or the mistakes I've made, he's the only one who has seen me for the person I am and nothing else. He knows that people make mistakes and he sees me for that. That doesn't mean that he doesn't shout at me when I make a mistake. Of course he does! But that's why I love him.
I'm probably writing this because he left last week and I miss the fact that the house isn't noisy anymore and no one is watching TV or the PS3. 
But I know that he's someone who will do anything for me, just like I would do for him.

Happy Mummy's Day

Since the day we are born until the day we die, there is nothing more comforting than being taken care of by your mother. May it be the age of 5, 20 or even 50, you always want your mother when you are sick, or going through a crisis or even just to gossip with.
I know growing up, I was never an easy child and I constantly fought with her about my opinions and how different they were to hers. How she was old fashioned and life wasn't how it was when she was a kid. And yet, despite all my tantrums, everyday as I left the house, she would say she loved me. 
My mother is a simple woman. She's doesn't care what people wear or what they say, as long as they are good at heart. She's the type of person who will cuddle with you when you're not feeling well and feed you even when you're not hungry. She turned from being my mother to being one of my closest friends. A person who is always there for me.
Being a mother is not easy task, as you can see here. But it's one of the most important jobs in the world. And one that other people take for granted.
So here's to you mummy. Thank you for being there for me and believing in me even when I didn't believe in myself. Thank you for bearing with my tantrums and stubbornness since I was born. Thank you for allowing me to irritate you every single day. And most of all, thank you for loving me unconditionally.
I love you (even though I may not say it enough)
So here is to another 23 years of annoying you and many more.

The Invisible Women

This article shocked me in more ways that I can imagine. Maybe it's because I live abroad, or that I have lived a sheltered life. You could say that it's because I'm spoilt, but I never thought that being divorced, widowed, raped, etc. could condemn a woman to live the life that these "invisible women" live.
How is it that in a country where we all say that we are modern and forward thinking that someone who has been raped can't live a normal life and has to be shunned from society and looked down upon. Why is it that a woman who stood up for herself while living in an abusive relationship now has to live in a dingy room. 
These women did not choose their future and they are trying to move forward which itself is hard from the circumstances that they have been in and yet we as a society decide that we will not allow them to.
It's sad to think that mothers are abandoned, that wives are left and that victims are looked down upon. 
It's not difficult to wonder why these things happened in the first place instead of thinking that these women have committed a mistake. How hard is it to lend a helping hand? To help look after a single mother's child while she has to work? To offer up a room so that your mother can stay? To take in your sister or daughter so that she won't have to suffer in an abusive relationship.
After all, when we look after people, isn't that when society moves forward and becomes better?
No one should have to be invisible.
Everyone should be seen.

Soulmates

Don't you sometimes think that some people just happen to click?
That no matter what happens, you would fly half way across the world for them?
And when they aren't there, it doesn't feel the same?
These people can be anyone. Your husband, wife, parents, siblings, friends, lovers or even pets.
Sometimes I think that the reason we live so far away from these people is because others would be jealous with what we have when we're together. That the world won't be able to handle us, since we'd create a lot of chaos. That one look can make you laugh and you know exactly what they're thinking without uttering a single word.
That's why we have these people everywhere we go, so that we always have someone to share our world with, no matter where we are.
Who are these people?
Soulmates.

I'm worth it

I don't know if I show it or not, but there are so many times in my life where I have had to deal with confidence issues. I think everyone goes through it in their lifetime at least once where they feel like they aren't worth it.

I have battled it many times, where what someone says affects me. But slowly over the years, I think that I've learned that what someone says doesn't matter. Of course it's hard when it happens to be a loved one that spouts out horrible things about you, but you can't let it affect you.

I've had many people tell me I'm worth it and I've shrugged it off in the past, but now I've started listening. I think the beginning of this year made me realise that this is my life and it's the only life that I have to live so I have to do it my way.

I can't listen to people with negativity in my life. I can't hold on to it. I have to take it in through one ear and out the other.

This isn't an easy process for me, but I am working on it. I try to avoid situations that aren't good for me and try not to take harsh words to heart.

Surround yourself with people who think you're worth it and more. I don't know if it'll help you, but it helped me.

I've started telling myself that I'm worth more than I think.

One day, I'll think I'm worth it all.

S

To You

I know I haven't written in the longest time, but I've been busy and I didn't have any inspiration to write. Bloggers block I guess you could say.

However, this post is dedicated to my friends.

I want to thank each and every one of you for being in my life and having the role that you do. Some of you are there for the deep meaningful conversations, some of you are there for the dreams, some of you are there for the silly nights and some of you are just there no matter what.

I know I don't show it much but I love you guys and I am really grateful to have such an amazing group of people who have supported me and will continue to do so in my journey through life.

These are the people who have been with me through my tantrums, my ups and my downs and I can't thank you enough.

You all know who you are, and if you don't, then I will make sure you do.

I don't know why it just hit me today, but I am very grateful for each and every one of you.

Thank you for helping me be who I am.

Don't ever change, I'll smack you.

S