Sorry

Sorry.  The word no longer has any meaning coming from you. You say it over and over again promising that this won't happen again and yet here we are.  Sorry.  The message conveyed isn't that you will try not to do it again. The message conveyed is that you're saying it so that we go back to being normal. Sorry.  It doesn't come from within because you have too much of an ego to admit that you're wrong. You don't realise that leaving it behind is how you grow in a relationship. Sorry.  You keep on expecting us to be perfect not knowing that being perfect is a flaw. Sorry.  You want us to say it like we mean it, but we can't even get the word out of your mouth without another fight. Sorry.
Here I am, listening and not believing what you have to say. You say you won't do it again and here I am at the receiving end. All the words are forced words. If at one time you said it like you meant it, we wouldn't be here today.
Sorry. 

The Twinkle in Her Eye

A lot of times it takes us a great deal of strength to be happy. Genuinely happy. To know that we are content with who we are, what we're doing and be unapologetic about it.
She used to wake up every morning saying that she'd make him proud. That'd she'd be the apple of his eye. But it wasn't mean to be that way. Everyday something or another wasn't good enough. And it was her sibling who overshadowed her. 
She didn't mind it. She was proud of him too. His achievements were things that dreams were made of. And she was happy that he was achieving them. Yet, she wondered why it was so that he could do what he wanted and she couldn't. She put her creative streak in check, trying to please him. Eventually, learning that it would never be good enough, she stopped trying.
She wasn't interested in anything that she did. But when the moment came where she could unleash her creative side, her eye shone. She loved that she could express herself, even if it was only for a moment. She knew that this was the only time she had, and she took advantage of it.
As she grew up, she realised that it didn't matter to him whether she did well or not. She would never be good enough. And that was the day that she learned that she could be happy. Happy without anyone's approval. That it came from within.
So she decided to be who she was. She decided to fight for what she wanted. She was called a rebel, unruly and rude. But she was unapologetic about it. She decided to fight for herself. Why?
Because she knew she was good enough.

Day 7: Long distance lovin'

To live in this generation means that the world is smaller. We have gone lightyears ahead from letters to using video chat like Skype.
Catching up with this lil cutie after such a long time is such a stress relief! Seeing people's faces over Skype is basically one step down from seeing a person face-to-face. Face-to-screen is good enough for me right now ;)
I'm glad that other than just talking to her on the phone, I can see her reaction and goofy face to everything I've said and I can't wait to squish herrrrrr. 

Words stay in the heart

This past weekend, my parents and I got into a huge fight. Words were exchanged and doors were slammed. This is normal in every family, so why am I bringing it up?

It's because of the aftermath. Have you ever been in a fight where you try and remember what people have said and you just remember the negative things they've said about you?

People say that actions say more than words, but remember that words stay in the heart. Sometimes what you say out of anger can stay in the mind of someone else for long periods of time. Whether it's something as simple as "You're stupid" to "I hate you" to "You've ruined my life", you have to keep in mind the impact that it has on someone else.

I admit it, I've done it. I've said things out of anger that I sometimes wish I could take back, but that's the problem, you can't.

So many young men and women hear the negative things that we say and take it to heart. You can't help it, we're human. They magnify all the negative and live unhappy lives.

So just be careful what you say. They can either make or break someone's day and you'd rather be the cause of someone's smile than their frown.

And one last thing, never forget to tell someone you love them. People tend to forget that they are loved and we need to constantly remind them. Don't wait for the perfect moment, do it now.

S

Be Strong

The other day, I heard a story about someone close to my heart. Let's call her R.

R married her husband S quite a few years ago, when I was a small child. She lived a life, that wasn't ideal but it wasn't bad either. Soon she had a baby girl and they lived well for a bit. During these years, S abused her verbally. Calling her names, saying she was worthless, etc. She left him and went to stay with her family but always went back to him. She had another baby girl and she may have thought that things would change now that they have two kids to take care of. But no. Things didn't change. Instead they got worse. A couple of days ago, he hit her, and threatened to throw acid on her face.

I think she finally had enough. She packed her things and left to go home. I don't know if she'll go back or she's call the cops, but I hope it's the latter.

My mum asked me this the other day after telling me this story. She asked, "I don't know if it's women who are less impatient, but she packed her things and left."

My reply to that was "It's not that women are less impatient ma, it's that in our generation, there is no stigma anymore if a couple is divorced. She doesn't have to worry about what people think, she has children to worry about and that's her first priority. Her husband is stupid to think that he can behave that way with her. She's less afraid, because people will always find out the truth."

Its so sad to hear that some people think that their loved ones are their property rather than anything else.

There's nothing that I can say to help her, except support her in what she does. I hope the number of people who behave like S decrease, and I hope people realise that you are strong enough to walk away. Don't worry about what people say. You are your first priority. If you are safe, then your family will be too.

There are always organisations that you can call for help in your country. Find out their numbers.

Be safe.

S

Yeh Jaawani Hai Deewani

I'm grooving to Balam Pichkari right now after watching Yeh Jaawani Hai Deewani last night.

This is a movie that I think everyone has to watch. It's about family, love, being yourself, fulfilling your goals and above all your friends.

The movie brings together fours friends 8 years after a memorable trip and makes us look at where they are in life and how things have changed.

The reason I think everyone should watch it is because of the friendships and how they develop. We all have friends that we have lost touch with who used to mean the world to us. In this day and age, we all spend so much time worrying about our careers and where we want to be in 10 years, that sometimes we forget the relationships we had. 

I'm not saying that it's bad to focus on your career and be the best you can be, all I'm saying is that sometimes while doing that, you can forget the reasoning behind it. At the end of your life, when you look back upon it, are you going to remember all the money you made, or all the relationships you made?

When focusing on your life and seeing the world, we can forget the small things in life and miss out on the most important moments of the people that love you. 

It's not bad to sometimes take a deep breath and slow down. Sometimes you experience the best things at that moment.

S